This blog is only about awakening, nothing more, nothing less. Anything that will contribute to the possibility of complete liberation from the dream, or from the mass hallucination of humanity, or from the mental matrix, or from the false self, or from the lie, or any other label you want to call it, is welcome here. The key words are FREEDOM and JOY. Sometimes I think this reporting about stuff just keeps the false story going and only adds to the insanity, and there's too much of that already. But something is trying to pry the lid off still, something awaits to be seen. We are all in this boat together, so here we go......have fun!


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Sunday, January 24, 2021

The One’s Reunion With Itself



Ultimately sex doesn't come into its own till it is revealed as an aspect of the One's own joy in discovering and reuniting with Itself, disguised as the not-self or other - as one very special other. (Douglas Harding. Quoted in Seeing Who You Really Are by Richard Lang.)

Who after all, is here? Who is this Present-absent One, this No-thing, this 1st Person Singular, present tense? Haven't we decided that He is the one eyeless Seer, the one earless Hearer, the one tongueless Taster? He is also the one bodiless Lover! And just as the lover sees the beloved's face through a conceptual fog while he thinks he sees it with his eyes, and muffles the sound of her voice while he thinks he hears it with his ears, so he hardly begins to love her body while he thinks he loves it with his body. Only when he submits to being the One he really is - and she really is - does he know how to love that body, and know what sex is really about. In order to love it is necessary to be God, for God is love - and, not least, physical love. In order to be truly one with another it is necessary to be the One who is that other. (Douglas Harding. Quoted in Seeing Who You Really Are by Richard Lang)


Monday, September 14, 2020

9 Ego Defense Mechanisms That Kill Self-Growth

 


September 14th, 2020

By Mateo Sol

Guest writer for Wake Up World

You’re hopeless, useless, burdensome. Nothing will ever go well, everyone is always better than you, you’ll never be perfect. You want to be liked, but you’re unlovable, and a failure at life. Sound familiar?

To the majority of people this language does. Mental traps – or ego defense mechanisms – serve as the rusty cogs that continue the mechanic cycles of pain, toxic shame, and hopelessness within us. In many instances, they are so deeply ingrained in the mind, that we are completely oblivious of their existence.

The most important thing to realize about these cognitive errors is that they’re maladaptive ways of dealing with the world and the self. In fact, living in the world of mental distortions is like living a lie. Your perception is constantly tainted with melancholic negativity that brings forth unrealistic and untruthful thoughts.

But it’s not your fault and there is a way of moving through this feeling of stuckness.

In this article, my goal is to help you identify, reframe, and deprogram these ego defense mechanisms. Doing so will allow you to experience more inner peace, self-love, groundedness, trust, and spiritual connectedness with life.

What Are Ego Defense Mechanisms?

Ego defense mechanisms (or mental traps) are psychological strategies that help us deal with the uncertainty and ambiguity of existence. When a painful truth or reality is too much for us to bear, you can be sure that an ego defense mechanism will jump in to save you. Think of it like a knight in shining armor that protects your sanity. The only difficulty is that, often, this inner knight is unwilling to let go of its desire to protect us due to fear and trauma. When this happens, we are left with old, outdated, and dysfunctional inner programming that runs on repeat, wreaking havoc in our lives.

17 Signs Your Ego Defenses Are Harming You

Pay attention to the following signs:

  • You suffer from low self-esteem and self-worth
  • You constantly get into fights with people
  • You feel on-edge around others for no apparent reason
  • You often feel like an innocent victim
  • You feel like the world is against you
  • You see the world in black and white (“good or bad,” “right or wrong,” “friend or enemy,” “us or them,” etc.)
  • You tend to jump to extremes in relationships, i.e., one day you love your partner, the next you hate them
  • You tend to be critical and sarcastic
  • You rarely accept blame (because you “haven’t done anything wrong”)
  • You are a cynic but at the same time an idealist
  • You have high expectations for yourself and others
  • You feel dissatisfied with yourself/life a lot of the time
  • You have an addictive personality
  • You tend to be obsessive
  • You overthink everything
  • You often feel like a phony/fake
  • You feel disconnected from your true self and life

How many signs can you relate to?

9 Basic Ego Defense Mechanisms

The nine basic ego defense mechanisms are:

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Saturday, September 12, 2020

The Way I See It...

 


I’ve been watching the narrative unfold for quite some time now, at least since 1991 when George Bush Senior announced the Iraq war and the ushering in of a New World Order. Hearing those words froze my blood because I knew where they were heading. I had already become immersed in discovering the Matrix nature of reality from reading “Trilaterals Over Washington” soon after is was published, as well as G. Edward Griffin’s tome “The Creature From Jekyll Island”. The veil between the life I was attempting to live and the reality slowly creeping into every aspect of that life, was wearing thin at that point....I had choices to make. So I dove deep into spiritual technologies I had learned over the previous decades and honed my ability to tune into and follow natural and innate capabilities of the human organism to attune to healthy life affirming frequencies that emanate from our organic biome. That’s a long sentence!

I have used these innate abilities to inform me how to survive the worst of the physical, emotional, mental, economic, and spiritual chaos that is ensuing around the world in varying degrees. It requires a great deal of flexibility and patience, long term spacial-temporal awareness, and only a loosely held identification with the personality aspect of your Being.

The only way to completely break with the societal and personal program you are identified with is to either :

1) travel around the world for at least a year, much as a vagabond, and interact with, live with, and hear the stories of the daily lives of real people.

2) go to an intensive, weeks long, silent retreat in a remote location immersed in nature.

3) take plant medicines in a focused, safe environment with an experienced Shaman.

And even of these tried and true methods, nothing is guaranteed in the end. 

I will tell you, however, if you do not at least try to confront and tell yourself the truth about your existence, and what raw life force working through you is destined to do, you will never return to joyously thriving on this living, breathing world that we were designed to share. The narratives of personalities in power because of a deep belief in money magick are telling you one story. Do you believe it? Or has the whole thing started to crack open, and your previous sense of security been hijacked?

When I went back to college after my divorce, I ended up with a degree in Sociology. Sometimes I wish I had studied electrical engineering, but that’s water under the bridge. What I was tasked to study, and what I discovered, proves that there has been a long term plan to hijack reality, and using Pavlovian principles to “train” the populace to fit smoothly into a technocracy, managed by an algorithm designed by our self-styled “rulers”. If any of you do research on Edward Bernais, he is a darling of the technocrats because his psychological research showed how easy it is to steer group mentality through choosing the information fed to a populace by controlled media sources. For many decades, if not centuries, a handful of discreet power brokers have controlled the newspapers, publishers, movie studios, television, radio, and now, a great deal of the internet (which is presently slowly deleting alternative views from mainstream platforms).

Bernais is the godfather of advertising. His principle have formed the action plan of the New World Order, starting with programming the minds of the entire planet, starting as young as possible. And so from the very beginning, we were plunged into a virtual, planned reality, much like one would design an intricately plotted role playing game.

We were trained to be consumers. We were ignorant that we were participating in a Ponzi scheme that sucked the rest of the world of resources so we in the western world could buy cheap goods, and pattern our lives after “Father Knows Best”. The industries that have flourished consistently, are the military industrial complex and pharmaceutical industry. 

When home computers and cell phones arrived, they got us carrying around surveillance tools to give them information in order to refine selling points. Getting a LIKE on Facebook had the same effect as a cattle prod but with dopamine. It is well understood the humans have a propensity to want to gather in communities, and so they are good at creating insular groups within which to bolster a pre-packaged view, slogans and all.

The deep state players keep most people divided and resentful as gradually people’s lives are invaded  and made more intolerable. Then, people like Soros take advantage of the people’s unrest and fund groups using mega bucks to draw people’s attention away from the fact that they are being robbed to pay for the insane level of debt accrued by this Ponzi scheme, and all those assets, represented now by bits of paper, are about to be sucked into the back pockets of people like Bill Gates and Jeff Bezos, et al.

You do not have to believe me, but you must pay attention to what your innate intelligence is trying to do to save your ass. You cannot ignore the call from your evolutionary imperative. The wisdom gained from understanding the process of how a human brain engram can be captured and trained through belief, much like the movie “The Truman Show” depicts, is incalculably valuable in awakening from the trance we have been under.

You know you are awake if the push to fly out of the nest is greater than the comfort of staying in it.

You know where you need to be and you are doing what is necessary to assist humanity’s return to the Original blueprint engrained in our DNA and frequential signature.

By relaxing back into our natural state of pure consciousness, we relinquish the control the invented reality has over us. We can clearly see choices, moment by moment, opening before us as our frequency quickens. It is a matter of becoming attentive to this process. This is what meditation is for, to help us discern between what is false and what is true using one’s own tools of perception. 

We are attempting to reawaken the innate code sequence that resides in the human template and has since the beginning and has not yet been corrupted. Frequency and vibration is the default switch, and is protectively encoded into certain medicinal plants that act as triggers. Sunlight radiation also acts on us this way, as does living oxygenated water (like standing under a waterfall). Tantra, yoga, breath work through Rebirthing, singing, chanting and drumming...these activities bring forth elemental vibrational forces that open us to tribal wisdom, which leads me to the direction within which I am now headed.

To heal the story of mankind, we must tell a new story. We must build communities based on the best principles we have as a collective discovered so far, and put them into daily practice. We have to think outside the box, be open to new perspectives, to discuss and hash out all the intricacies of communication and relationships, to be a living experiment of what works and doesn’t work, and commit to grow together toward something fulfilling to every member.

Also, we must practice radical honesty, kindness, compassion, and integrity with ourselves and everyone we connect to or meet. We must never contrive to coerce or force another to see things our way, knowing intimately that ”our way” is derived from programming and does not take into account the trained perspectives of others. Once you see the Being in a person, and see “through” the program, compassion is automatic.

Ultimately you will see that even the concept of “I” and “other” is a part of how we are psychologically captured. Using mostly imagery and emotion, television and movies teach us to see ourselves according to how the market wants us to see ourselves in order to sell us oodles of unnecessary stuff (how else to explain the Barbie dolls and doll houses and toy ironing boards that were foisted on me as a little girl?) “I” is the accumulation of experiences along a timeline which then gets catalogued into your cranial living library so that is can be retrieved at a moments notice according to emotional impact. Those memories with the most emotional impact are relived repetitively and form the basis of self belief. You gravitate toward what is perceived as positive feedback and that survival instinct keeps us steered toward whatever perception of “success” looks like. 

“I” is a program. Mind is a program. You are the consciousness that perceives the program. 

You can do this because your consciousness preceded the program.


Delve into the question “Who/What am I” and get to the root of it.


🦋Suzen



Tuesday, September 8, 2020

A SIMPLER WAY



A Simpler Way


A Simpler Way: Crisis as Opportunity is a feature-length documentary that follows a community in Australia who came together to explore and demonstrate a simpler way to live in response to global crises. Throughout the year the group build tiny houses, plant veggie gardens, practice simple living, and discover the challenges of living in a community.

The film documents the community’s learning process as well as exploring the global issues we’re facing, through interviews with some of today’s most interesting speakers on the subjects, including permaculture co-originator David Holmgren, filmmaker and activist Helena Norberg-Hodge, climate change activist David Spratt and many more.




Saturday, September 5, 2020

WINNING THE WAR ON CONSCIOUSNESS – HUMANITY’S GRAND AWAKENING FROM DEEP STATE



Juliet Tang, Wake Up World


2020 is the year many in this world find themselves in an ultimate spiritual war of good and evil.
It started with a global lockdown that quickly escalated to race war, the talk of mandatory vaccines, 5G, transhumanism (the merging of human with AI), etc.
The war with Deep State (Cabal, Illuminate, the 1% elite, Satanists, etc.) has been going on for a very long time and involves multiple timelines. If you’re reading this, trust that you’ve chosen to come to this exact time to play a role during the end game, and the new beginning for humanity.
While reading this post, my advice for you is to use your discernment and do your own research, rather than take everything you watch and read to be the truth – this includes my words.
I am merely sharing with you the highest truth that is available to me at this time, after long hours of research and tuning inward.

The Time Has Come

Back in February, weeks before the lockdown in the United States occurred, I was in an unusually long and heavy psilocybin mushroom journey that foreshadowed what was to come – much of it didn’t make sense at the time because uncovering the agenda of Deep State was simply never my focus in life.
During the journey, I saw a giant light grid being formed by awakened leaders around the world; each was standing tall in their own pillar of light and holding their unique frequency of consciousness, truth, love, and liberation. This grid then activated what looked like a new earth grid inside of earth, shifting Gaia and the entire humanity into a different timeline where sovereignty reigns.
I was given the message over and over,

“The time has come. Be the message.”

Truthfully, I am not the type of person who invests time reading about ascension or galactic channelings, as I realized years ago a large percentage of the new age spirituality and plant medicine community has been hijacked by a lower consciousness, which is why there are many distortions such as scarcity mindset, emasculation of masculinity, as well as surface understanding and over-application of “love and light.” So the visions caught me by surprise.
In the next few months as the dominoes began to fall, the purpose of the visions is becoming clearer and clear, hence the birth of this post.
In order for me to share what it takes to win this war of consciousness, I’ll first address how Deep State has maintained its control over humanity.

The Matrix Has You, Neo

This one particular timeline of our current reality goes beyond what many spiritual seekers believe to be an illusion.
Our very culture is a fabricated and socially engineered existence created by Deep State to maintain a generally accepted storyline to enslave humanity, through distorting our ability to discern what’s artificial and what’s real, while children are being trafficked and sacrificed, and the puppets of Deep State (high level officials, celebrities, etc.) are committing crimes against humanity.
Symbolism and giving away clues to their plan are all part of the game Deep State plays. In fact, many Hollywood movies such as The Matrix, V for Vendetta have pretty much dropped the major clues.
Many know the harmful effects caused by GMO, vaccines, Big Pharma, fluoride in water, etc. What they don’t realize is that there’s a far more sinister agenda behind what many believe to be corporate greed.
Every industry within this Matrix has been planted and infiltrated by Deep State to maintain its control – food, health, medical, entertainment, money, politics, education, etc.
When we consume genetically modified foods that are toxic to our bodies and cells, drink fluorinated (a neurotoxin) water that calcifies our pineal gland, mindlessly tune into Hollywood movies or news that are full of hidden dark symbols and lies that hypnotize our minds, and surround ourselves with wifi, cellphone and towers that are disruptive to our brainwaves, we become an unconscious participant in their game.
In short, our bodies and minds have been greatly altered, our emotions manipulated, and our consciousness hijacked so that we are susceptible to what Deep State wants us to think, feel, and do.
Many are not only unable to discern lies from truth, but also depend on this false matrix so much that the mere suggestion of questioning the mainstream media narrative is enough to trigger cognitive dissonance or anger, because a part of their identify has been threatened.
This is the reason why the moment Google labels anything a conspiracy theory, people either dismiss it, or are triggered by the person who’s had the nerve to bring it up. That in itself is a conditioned response planted by Deep State so no one questions what they are being told, while they carry out their bigger agenda in the dark.

Divide and Conquer and Communism 

Currently, a socialist regime is being rolled out in most countries in our world by Deep State, with the intention to create a one world government, or the New World Order.
One of the signature moves of socialism/communism is divide and conquer by naming a group of citizens “common enemy” of the society. This “common enemy” group then becomes a label of hate and everything that is wrong with the society, whilst other members of the society are free to “cancel” them.
I am the granddaughter of a woman who was canceled (persecuted) by Communists in China during the Cultural Revolution that started in 1966, which resulted in tens of millions of deaths and lasting famine in its ten year duration. The social justice warriors back then were called Red Guards.
The Red Guards of China were youths and school kids – brainwashed and recruited by the government to carry out acts of what they believed to be justice, using tactics such as public shaming, property destruction, gaslighting, virtual signaling, and physical assault/torture of other human beings.
If you look closely at how division is being played out in our society today, you will recognize it in a heartbeat.
Essentially, the idea is to turn citizens against and police each other, so that we defeat ourselves with minimal effort on their part. It also divides us psychological and emotionally, which greatly weakens us, as human beings are social animals that thrive when we bond with each other.
A divided population is much easier to manipulate and control.

Information War

Those who control information, control our perspective. And each of us creates our reality from our perspective.
The excessive distortions and censorship, and character assassination of experts who dare to challenge the main stream narrative are all part of the information war we are in right now.
Some light research will help you find out that almost all mainstream media is controlled by 6 companies, owned by a few billionaires of the world.
On an energetic level, information is spelled in-formation, which means what we consume then forms our bodies and cells.
Each word carries a specific charge, and all words are spells (spell-ing).
What we are experiencing goes beyond politics. There is (dark) magic involved.
Watch out when a narrative, chant or image is being repeated over and over by the masses, it’s almost always a sign a spell has been cast.
When the masses fall under a spell, they will make choices and take actions believing it’s coming from their free will, when it isn’t.
Breaking out of a spell requires a shift in consciousness and frequency, which is presented in the solutions below.

What Is the Solution Then?

The long term solution requires us to address all fronts – physical, mental, emotional, and spiritual. It requires the human race to work together as a team to detoxify and upgrade our bodies, communities and institutions, so that all have access to clean water, organic fresh foods, conscious education, and healthcare that is not sick care in disguise.
This will obviously take time. Since our entire history has been manufactured, we are here to remember, and rewrite everything about who we are, what we desire to create in this world, and how we can leave this planet a better place for our children and their children.
These are some of the short term solutions I have received:


Monday, June 23, 2014

Improvisational Relationship



By Suzen

After reading This Article, I came up with a new idea, a new term. I call it “Improvisational Relationship”. I have noticed how in all relationships, we have expectations and concepts about how it is supposed to progress, gleaned from generations of programming. Especially in intimate relationships, we self-sabotage by getting stuck in old ways of communicating that never really connect. The relationship erodes because we are attempting to plug ourselves in old models of relating that do not have any flexibility or ingenuity, no inventiveness or creativity, no spontaneity or aliveness.  So what if we did relationship completely differently, as an exercise in ad-libbing our way through it?

Awareness is the key to this, as is microscopic honesty. It means no hidden agendas or secrets or withheld communications. It means putting all your cards on the table at all times, never anything up your sleeve. And it means a direct commitment every moment to being as conscious as possible and completely responsible for everything going on inside you, including the propensity to project on and blame others for causing uncomfortableness.

So how would this look? Let’s take a very simple example of a situation that could lead to an argument in “normal” circumstances.  Let’s say on partner suggests a meal out, perhaps for Chinese food. And the other partner responds with, “Chinese food? How could you suggest that when you know I hate Chinese food?” Suddenly drama ensues without either party looking at the deeper levels occurring here. How different it would be if partner #2 responded with, “Wow, I am noticing how strong an aversion I have to your suggestion, not only to this idea I have had for a long time that I do not like Chinese food, but also why would someone who loves me suggest something I dislike? I think I need to look at this deeper. Let’s go to that new Chinese restaurant and see if we can maintain our connection while there.”

Now we are in the realm of discovery, of adventure, a willingness to investigate the unknown. And this can’t be a one-way street, it has to be flexible enough to accommodate the testing and expanding of boundaries held by both parties to the experiment.

The point is to live completely in the moment, completely sensitive to and aware of the ways the past tries to elbow in on the present, locking us into previously designed scripts that no longer serve the Love we know we are. Love has no boundaries, no chains, no expectations. It is active, alive, free-flowing, and dynamic. It cannot be captured in a concept, a word, or a belief system. It is like trying to grab and jail the wind.

For generations, we have been inculcated with images and stories and experiences of relationship that often are dysfunctional and distorted, that do not include simple kindness, forgiveness, and affection. Maybe as children we had these experiences, but all too often, as we become grown-ups, this simple and uncomplicated way of relating falls to the wayside and we are caught up in the cultural dogmas of marriage, family, and child-rearing.

My son, Orion, has been involved with a way of exploring improvisation called “Story Games”. These are like role playing games, but live and sometimes fully theatrical, with costumes and props. More often, they are played around a table with a group, beginning with the outline of a situation, and roles and personalities are designed through a role of the dice. It is much like life in how it unfolds for us, where we find ourselves in parts and scenarios that appear unexpectedly and spontaneously. We truly have little control over how life unfolds, as much as we would like to think otherwise. In these games, one finds oneself often exploring and playing out very different facets of our personalities, sometimes encountering in the interactions with others our emotional limitations and boundaries. There is a pre-set agreement in these games that no one is required to act out anything they feel uncomfortable with: there is always a pre-arranged signal to call “time-out” in these circumstances. But most of the time, people are willing to go all the way through out of curiosity and discovery as to how things might play out. It is a fearless and exuberant exploration, sometimes therapeutic in nature, of our relational characteristics. The people who enjoy these games have often explored intimately with each other many possibilities of relating that allow them much more flexibility and leeway in their relational choices. They are not so hemmed in by conventional ways of thinking.

My participation in some of these exercises has stretched my own ideas about myself, especially those labels that confine me to the pre-defined roles of “mother”,  “woman”, and “spiritual”. What are these labels anyway except ways to make static and unchanging something that is part of the dynamic flow of living itself? These words are only useful when pointing to objects as we attempt to constantly fine tune our communications about them. But they ultimately have no objective or subjective meaning, in a world seeking its own evolution and as we individuals strive for liberation.

I am in the active process of discovering where I still harbor old definitions of self, especially in intimate relationships. It cannot be contrived, this feeling my way into the landscape of relating from pure unfathomable consciousness first, allowing myself to discover how it may unfold without attempting to control or manipulate the outcome. The pre-programmed personality must step aside, sometimes unwillingly, in order to allow an unhurried and instinctive developing of events. This primal and original aware self is deeply drawn to encounter this way of Being. There is a raw truth in it, vital and undisguised. It leaves me naked to my very soul, vibrant like a leaf dancing in the wind, in resonance with Life itself. Here is where I meet the Beloved of my Heart, in true celebration of our Oneness.

Bringing this to life in my physical existence, grounding it onto the earth and making it real, seems to be the goal of this lifetime now. Practicing this improvisational relationship in playful, childlike ways is enjoyable and generates much laughter. It is not a serious exercise, but a spirited one. It gets me immediately out of the mind matrix and into the Now. It is the leading edge of life as inventive art, a movement that arises from and increases creativity. It is Joy come alive.